Gone.

Ah, why yes, I just deleted my facebook. And to be quite honest; I have no idea what to really do with myself right now.. which is kind of sad to say.

But really, I'm kind of just over everything. Over everyone. I feel like there's so much more out there then the latest pictures out there, or who is talking to who, blah blah blah, etc. To be quite frank, I'm ready to get out and go do something with my life. God has so much more planned for me-I know it. I'm over materialistic things. And self-centered people. So, I guess America in general? I haven't even got it pin-pointed on what it is exactly He wants me to do, but I'm continuing to pray about it and just fully trust Him.

Personally, I want to travel. Always wanted to. I want to help reach out. I want to go to Africa. I want to do SOMETHING. Even if it that something is minor. I just honestly am not diggin' this whole school thing at the moment. I don't know if it's just being stuck here in Cleveland, TN or what. And I know, I'm probably not even making sense right now, but I'm no maniac. Sure, one may say that 'taking a break' from school after only finishing up only 2 years is stupid. Just plain idiotic. But hey, at least I'll be helping people out in some way or form. Because as of now, I have absolutely NO idea what I want to do with my life. So why not take time to really focus on God, to gravitate away from the materialistic world I live in? I mean, this isn't going to be a permanent thing by any means. After I take off/try something new for a semester or two, I'm going to pick right back up and finish off my last 2 years. That way I can broaden my horizons a little. Get a feel for what else is out there. Venture out into the world God created; the world God wants me to reach out to. Over these past few weeks I've come to full realization that nothing is up to me. At all. God holds everything in his hands; he has complete control of every single thing in my life. I've wasted too much time not relying on God and trying to control life on my own, when it was him that I've been needing the whole time. The only thing I got out of all my stubborness is a whole 'lotta hurt-which I blamed him for.. when he should've been the last person I pointed my finger toward.

In other words, this is my post in which I'm stepping full speed ahead. Done with being caught up in the world's view and eyes; because none of it matters. What benefits will ever come out from me trying to measure up to be this perfect person in the world's eyes? How could life ever be worth livng that way?

Time to trust.